The Erotic and The Revelation

Well, I'll begin with what I remember of my dreams last night.  I was apparently at some sort of brothel or penthouse.  I remember intercourse with a latina straddled on top of me before she got up and went through some door. . .next thing you know two other females approach me.  The short haired dirty dishwater blonde is who I was attracted to, but I got the long curly haired blond instead. . .she grabbed me before the other could get to me. . .the other went to another man and the curly haired blonde went down on me. . . she got up and the other short haired more attractiv girl came to me. . .but she had just been with another man and I did not know if she was. . .messy or who had been inside of her or if they came or not, so I ended up respectfully declining before I woke up.  Not a very godly dream, no?
My wife had a dream that I divorced her and married another woman. . .She and her family took a trip to our cabin in Colorado.  I happened to be there with my new wife and the girl (K) I had a real life emotional/physical affair was there as well.  (I add emotional because the other life affairs were void of emotional ties)  K had told my wife that I'd try to have sex with her (my wife) one last time to try and make her feel better because that's just what I do and that I would tell her I loved her just to get her in bed. . . That is what I did in her dream, but she refused, telling me she knew what I was trying to do.  -Now these are real life concerns and fears being played out in her dreams, understandably.  she woke up crying from this dream. . .I was already gone when she woke up.  I volunteer for Breakfast of Beech Street at First Christian Church, which feeds the homeless and low income families every weekdays.  I go on thursday mornings since I am already in town early anyway.  My uncle invited me several months back when his  presbyterian church takes part and I've done it ever since. 
The next dream was a continuation of a real conversation we had on the couch the night before.  I asked her "in our 7-8 years of marriage have you ever REALLY excepted my love and accepted the fact that I love you?"  It was a burning question I had to ask. . . the short answer was no. . I went to bed asking God why, though it's flagrant I did some damage with the affairs.  She said in her dream we were back on the couch and  I asked the question. . .but then it was a deep voice asking it. . .and the voice said to her "how can you love Tate or accept his love if you cannot accept my love for you?  She clearly understood this voice as God.  I was excited to hear that she had this dream this morning when she told me. Needless to say, I will avoid telling her mine.  She said then there were flashes from pictures of her past that kept popping up.  Things that might be preventing her from releasing her heart and accepting love in return. . . 

All the latest

I've had a slew of dreams the past weeks, obviously I've not kept up with a daily log, but this is due to the fact many haven't been worth remembering . . . or even remembered.  
Had another dream of a storm coming over a group of mountains with snow in the forecast following the thunderstorm.  I remember being with the fam and the snow came, it was pure and peaceful and I woke up.  A co-worker of mine felt the need to read the scripture from Job 33:14 that very same day.  I thought it interesting. 

I had a dream about "her" and she approached me very angry and yelling at me for doing what I did to her. . .leading her on ect. . .I got angry back. . .I took the noble route in reality and just told her what she needed to hear to move on.  In my dream I told her that she didn't really love me either. . .I said something to the effect of, "you say you love me, but making out with other guys and my friends really proved that to me."  "I never asked you to give anything up because it would have been selfish of me, I wanted you to do it on your own and you couldn't!  I'm supposed to give up my family, risk losing them,  and committ to a girl who can't even give up a few boyfriends and committ to me?!"  It shows how much you trusted me, how could I trust you then? (wrote a song about it on my youtube site) And something she said to me our last night together. . .she needed to know if she could tolerate my views. . .I said something in my dream to the effect of I don't need someone who can tolerate me, but who will respect my views the way I do yours.
These are all the things I wanted to say in real life, but never did. . .I just let her have her hay day with me. . .and it hurt at the time. . .I guess I needed to get it out of my system.  Then for some reason i was at her apartment and she was taking a shower before I woke up.
Last night I had a dream i was packing ice in someones back seat. . .then it flipped to me working at Eagle and they wanting me and others to take part in a coal mining project.  I refused.  Then I had a dream about my current boss conducting a meeting with us today and discussing the possibility of letting people go if we didn't aquire certain contracts. . . something that actually occurred today. . . it was like deja vu.  and that means a glitch in the matrix. . .

The Weather outside is frightful

Last night, the only dream I can recall.  I was with my wife and kids.  I get a phone call from some woman. . .unsure who. . .she calls me and tells me to stay inside your house/home and don't go outside.  Outside there is a storm brewing.  I see dark clouds and the wind is picking up.  I wake up.  Relevant?  Reminds me, men. If you are looking to have an affair with another woman and are thinking about getting serious. . .don't.  She more than likely has no clue what the hell she wants.  women, you thinking about getting with a married man?  don't.  Heartache will ensue.  storms will brew if you leave the house for a concubine. . .i don't mean to make the woman to be the bad apple.  only in my experience.  yes, unfortunately.  thank God for grace. . .

sex and swimming

So last night I remembered to remember some of my dreams...
It begins with me helping my parents move into a new house down the road from their current house. . .omg, the infamous "she" is in my dream again.  (read previous posts to find out who "she" is)   she is on the road behind ours.  her bosses vehicle (an old acquaintance)  is in her parking lot.  I think to myself. . .ew, but she is always talking about being lonely, (a poor excuse btw) she ends up coming over to talk to my dad. . .I ignore it. . .dream moves on to the san antonio town hall.  I am swimming in a pond with others and the pond extends into the town hall.  I swim out of the water and swim over the steps leading out of the water.  (i recently visited some people at our town hall, prob incorporated this into my dream)  I see a young woman and "swim/fly" over to her.  she leads me to an office with two other young women.  I begin to have sex with this girl on their desk while kissing the other two girls. . .the first girl dissipates into thin air. yea,  I know. . . without going into much detail, i being having sex with one of the other girls.  She is riding me because that provides the most stimulation for her. . .then I wake up. 
Again I would like to note. . .I am hoping for even sex dreams to be absent from my mind, but sometimes dreams are hard to control.  I would like that only my wife be a part of my dream life. . .haven't mastered that ability. . .

two birds one stone

So i skipped a night so here is two in one.
Tues morning.  Beltway is holding service outside, our pastor asks me to come up for a demonstration.  The grass makes steps and a seating place for everyone.  I finish and have to walk back up the steps.  "she" is there with her dad.  I try to not notice.  Her dad gets up and is waiting for me.  I think he's about to punch me.  He just says hello and I shake his hand pat him on the shoulder say hey how are you good to see you and walk on past. . .I happen to like her family in real life, good people.  Then I'm at hardin-simmons with jason who was in BEGE's with me (frat) he is a little on the slow side.  A couple guys from cooper are making fun of him.  I've always had a problem with people making fun of individuals who might be . . .challenged.  I stuck up for him in real life going toe to toe to a douchebag football player (at the time) at HSU and people had to break us up.  Don't care when people mess with me, but not someone else.  I had a problem with these guys.  They kept at me and at some point I warned them, when they wanted to fight, that I knew karate (aikido to be exact) and by law I had to tell them if i kicked their asses. (which I don't think is true)  I'm not big on harping on my ass kickery skills.  I don't like others who feel they have to tell others how good they are in karate either.  Use your head right and you can get out of most fights and be friends is my philosophy.  Dream over.

This morning.    Somethinf about driving with a co-worker getting pulled over and getting a ticket.  I mention this is the 12th ticket on this road and I use God's name in vain.  But I have doubts GD is using it in vain because "God" is more a title than a name.  YHWH, if you believe in the Hebrew God, is his actual name. The reason they left out the vowels was out of reverence.  maybe it's because I have thought this in my head as of late and I am justifying myself. . .but still worth a mention. Next went to some scene recusitating an individual at my parents. . .unsuccesfully.  I am cpr licensed and trained.  didn't do so well in my dream.  The End.