Well, I'll begin with what I remember of my dreams last night. I was apparently at some sort of brothel or penthouse. I remember intercourse with a latina straddled on top of me before she got up and went through some door. . .next thing you know two other females approach me. The short haired dirty dishwater blonde is who I was attracted to, but I got the long curly haired blond instead. . .she grabbed me before the other could get to me. . .the other went to another man and the curly haired blonde went down on me. . . she got up and the other short haired more attractiv girl came to me. . .but she had just been with another man and I did not know if she was. . .messy or who had been inside of her or if they came or not, so I ended up respectfully declining before I woke up. Not a very godly dream, no?
My wife had a dream that I divorced her and married another woman. . .She and her family took a trip to our cabin in Colorado. I happened to be there with my new wife and the girl (K) I had a real life emotional/physical affair was there as well. (I add emotional because the other life affairs were void of emotional ties) K had told my wife that I'd try to have sex with her (my wife) one last time to try and make her feel better because that's just what I do and that I would tell her I loved her just to get her in bed. . . That is what I did in her dream, but she refused, telling me she knew what I was trying to do. -Now these are real life concerns and fears being played out in her dreams, understandably. she woke up crying from this dream. . .I was already gone when she woke up. I volunteer for Breakfast of Beech Street at First Christian Church, which feeds the homeless and low income families every weekdays. I go on thursday mornings since I am already in town early anyway. My uncle invited me several months back when his presbyterian church takes part and I've done it ever since.
The next dream was a continuation of a real conversation we had on the couch the night before. I asked her "in our 7-8 years of marriage have you ever REALLY excepted my love and accepted the fact that I love you?" It was a burning question I had to ask. . . the short answer was no. . I went to bed asking God why, though it's flagrant I did some damage with the affairs. She said in her dream we were back on the couch and I asked the question. . .but then it was a deep voice asking it. . .and the voice said to her "how can you love Tate or accept his love if you cannot accept my love for you? She clearly understood this voice as God. I was excited to hear that she had this dream this morning when she told me. Needless to say, I will avoid telling her mine. She said then there were flashes from pictures of her past that kept popping up. Things that might be preventing her from releasing her heart and accepting love in return. . .
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